Some days those were painful words to hear, as ‘letting go and moving on, wasn’t something that was happening in Henry and my life’

Spoken by Jesus ~ God’s only begotten Son ~ in His Sermon On The Mount ‘The Beatitudes’, Jesus began speaking / teaching His Disciples and followers with ‘The Beatitudes’ ~ being the comforting message to the crowd who gathered. The whole book of Matthew, is awesome, and Chapter 5 being one that focuses on Matt and Ginny’s celebration of life ~ with their precious Eliot, in my mind’s eye.

A parents grief / mourning over a child’s passing over ~ into the arms of Jesus, is so comforting … and being blessed with knowing we loved them each day while they are with us, cherished memories we cling to, during our hours of grief . Nothing is in a wink of an eye / the healing process after a loss takes time ~ though I’ve seen many bounce back / land on their feet after losses – including jobs, divorce, deaths of family & friends / physical injury, etc., in miraclous time.

As my daughter passed over ~ in her 25th year, the Mooney’s testimony was such an inspiration, as their faith / love / hope was placed in God’s hands, with a network of community [family / friends / extended Church family], who knew and nutured this couple with positve support and pray.

With Christina’s death and leaving behind 2 gifted daughters, many negative forces were active in our past decade – with Court procedures [concerned adults] and warring / protecting the children, which my husband [stepfather] wanted no part of, to add to the plate of grief they were experiencing – in carrying on without their loving mother ~ and what we were all [already] dealing with, in our love for Tina, as no biological parent brings life into this world, who our Heavenly Father / Parent / Creator … did not call / breath life into, that had no purpose.

Ever take a nature walk, discovering, enjoying, and totally knowing that all are life / life bearing, and there is the feeling of being part of one with God and mother earth. After all, the garden was existing before Adam showed up. So all that has happened since, has a reason, though heartaches / pains of life that we are forced to swallow, can be so bitter of a pill[s] / punch[es] we receive[d] – get [got] through, in the ‘School of Hard Knocks.’

Wanting only to establish visitations with our grandchildren, many issues took a toll on us, when I only wanted to speak of how much joy Christina brought to this world, and the lifes of those she came in contact with ~ through her RPN career.

I kept myself busy, volunteering at the Ark Aid Mission, where clothing and food ministries are established, helping those going through difficult times could find acceptance / dignity / prayer, with many of the volunteers / staff, when we weren’t flying around the ‘big boat’ sorting through the countless donations from the caring / concerned people of the community / surrounding areas.

Then when speaking with agnostic / athetist, with all their blasphemy words and opinions on ‘What’s wrong with this world – there can’t be a caring merciful God, letting babies / wars / crime go on !’, while they live their days in a daze of robotic existance. There would be those that walk amongst us [world wide]speaking venom towards what they do not understand, but I hear God has a soft spot for them to, as long as they are not spreading hate crimes / hardened hearts when the trumpet blast sounds. The Book of Revelations~Bible, written by Disciple~ John.

We know our treasures are stored in heavenly places, and may be Eliot ended up in my daughter’s ward of taking care of incoming cherubs, as there is no sickness…and they probably headed for the playground ~ up there ~ somewhere.

Thank you Matt / Matt & Ginny, for sharing ‘Your Story’ so others can groan, grow, and perserve in obtaining their dreams and goals, knowing we will see our loved ones again ~ in eternity ~ heaven. Your {Eliot’s} diary, will be such a treasure to share with your future children, when of age and time is right. You are such a gifted / caring couple.

Happy ending to my story, with a continuing saga. At my ‘Freedom 55′ celebration, we gathered at my sisters for a camp fire after dinner, and discussing where out of town guest were bunking for the night. From the party, I took one pink balloon, from this special event with family and friends, as my brother and sister flew in from distance, and a kept secret ~ to my delight.

As I spoke with Christina’s daughters, telling them that in that night ‘I’ was releasing their mom ~ to soar…as in them she was part of our celebration at the ‘Essex Cook House’. They joined me, as the pink balloon that was tied to my heart string eventual disappeared into the night. She still visits us in dreams, songs we hear, and joyful memories of Tina’s generous / loving spirit, who blessed many.

Healing comes in so many thought waves we share / actions we take / jestures of kindness, and all of this comes in the 3 words / homework {Forgive / Celebrate Life}, which I now feed my subconscious mind 24/7, in large doses

As a cancer survior, I know God’s ways are just and true, and His mercy & grace are sufficient. Jesus will never fail us … through the valleys of life, or sitting on the mountain top talking with a monk / guru, as He walks / talks / fellowships with all who are listening to the still & peaceful voice, and want to have a heart to heart talk with Him / His Dad. What a wonderful ‘Big Brother’ we have in Jesus.

Brandi
Public Speaker / Author

How wonderful and joyful your short life was. You were loved to the full!

How wonderful of your Mum and Dad to let you live and love you so much!

Thanks Matt

Thank you, for sharing this.

David Tillyer
http://www.davidtillyer.com